Help!

I am in need of some help. I feel like I have made tons of strides in my diet. My PCOS is connected to insulin resistance, so I've gone gluten free. That means I've introduced a ton more veggies and fruits into my diet because I don't want to substitute bad things for things that might be even worse for me as far as fat content goes. I've started drinking apple cider vinegar before each main meal as I've read that helps with insulin resistance as well. I'm taking a daily vitamin and a supplement that helps the reproductive system and Saw Palmetto for hair loss. I am adding chia seeds to nearly everything I eat and in some cases, what I drink so I can get that fiber I'm missing out on and some omega-3s while I'm at it. What I am lacking is a good exercise plan. Something I can do everyday. I can't justify stretching the budget for a gym membership when I know I won't go to the gym alone. The park is awesome, when I can make it there in the daylight. I like to sleep and I'm an awful, wretch of a person if I am woken up too early. My schedule is never constant. Go in at 8 am one day, go in at 11 the next. You just never know.  I need your ideas and help. What do you do to fit in exercise around family and work and obligations? What kinds of exercise do you do? Help me friends, you are my only hope!

Long Weekend

This weekend was a difficult one. I felt like no matter what I was doing, it wasn't enough. Every time I looked in the mirror I hated what I saw and nothing was good enough. I suffer from PCOS, a condition that can literally make a female into everything she doesn't want to be. Want long thick hair? Nope, your hair will fall out in large clumps and cause more plumbing issues than you can imagine. Want a thin or skinnier frame? Nope, PCOS is gonna make it a bitch to loose weight no matter what you do. And don't get me started on hair growth. Yep, it might take it from your head, but it's gonna put it back on your legs, face and arms.

PCOS was kicking my ass this weekend, and I let it beat me.

Nothing I tried on seemed to fit and I felt like a cow in everything I tried on. I had a wedding on Saturday night and felt like staying home because I felt as big as a house. I craved the worst foods imaginable all weekend. Burgers, fried chicken, pizza. As if any of that would help me fit into any of the clothes better. And I've been stressed. I have a lot of challenges being presented to me at work and home and I am meeting them but it's taking a toll. Normally, I would stress eat, then freak out because I couldn't stand what I'd just done to myself.

But this weekend, I didn't do that. It was uncomfortable, but I had to deal with it. I didn't fall back on eating pizza or ice cream. I didn't stay home because I felt like crap. I went out, forced myself to let it go and have a good time despite it. And it worked. I have no clue how, but I made it through it. Maybe it was the little encouragements here and there from my husband who told me I was beautiful in that green dress or my coworker who said I was on the right track after I felt totally overwhelmed. Maybe I've just grown up and realized that I can't treat myself like crap anymore. Or maybe, I just got lucky and rode the wave through the storm.

I'll take it anyway it happens.